Free Chapter: Choosing to Embrace Chaos

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If we get the opportunity to have a say in the future lifetimes we choose to experience, why would we willingly decide to experience drastic extremes such as wars, destruction, and the illness and death of our loved ones? Why wouldn’t we choose to learn our lessons through beauty, bliss, harmony, joy, and love? This is probably because those high vibrational energies, such as joy and love, are already widely present in the spirit realm.

Being on Earth offers a very physical experience where we get to “play” with the full spectrum of emotions. Consider how some people love to watch horror movies for the thrill of the adrenaline rush, even though that is probably not the world they would ideally like to live in. Unless, of course, there is a good reason for making the choice to live in a nightmare-like existence.

J was a unique client living in Israel during the breakout of the Israel-Hamas War, where thousands of soldiers and civilians, including innocent mothers, fathers, and children, have been killed and wounded by bombs nearly every day. She was also dealing with an illness in her family, with her mother slipping further away every day due to dementia. As you can imagine, J greatly struggled with both of these aspects of her life and wondered why she even decided to come to Earth to be surrounded by these horrible atrocities in the first place.

After her Higher Self brought forth visions of prior incarnations, I was able to ask directly why these especially challenging life circumstances were chosen. Why did J choose to come to Earth, and why did she choose such an intense life for herself? The answers that came through can give us a greater understanding of how we are still able to benefit from the horrible things that are happening in the world on a higher soul level, even if they seem unnecessarily harsh or meaningless to our human selves.

N: Why did J choose to live in a place that is breaking out in war?

J: So she can embrace the fact that she is highly sensitive more, and she can feel it to extremes, as she wished for herself. She doesn’t remember that. That she can bring her light to the people that need it. That she can spread the love. She’s a very loving person, a very caring person. She needs to experience those extremes in order to be sure about how she needs to continue her life and how fragile it is and how important it is for her to continue on her path and do the things that bring her joy.

It’s another test for her. She has chosen it and she knows it because she asked this question herself every day since the war started. So, she knows she put herself here for a reason. She kind of figured it out already.

N: Why did she choose to come to Earth in general?

J: She decided to come to Earth to continue expanding, to continue experiencing and feeling things, exploring the human concept. She wanted to bring light to the world, and she believes she has an important mission to do, but she got… she got overloaded. And she doesn’t remember all the things that she wanted to do when she is on Earth.

She needs to bring joy to others. She wants to give joy to others and liberation and awakening to people that feel the same as she’s feeling here on Earth… to help others find their center by finding herself there first. She decided to come to Earth because she really wanted to. She wanted to experience it. She is a very brave soul. She knows it’s a privilege to be here, but sometimes it’s hard for her to comprehend. She will be just fine.

N: It’s actually been kind of good research for her to be in these big feelings because she knows what it feels like for other people who are overwhelmed by it as well. She’ll be able to help them better, won’t she?

J: Exactly. Because she can experience this to such a depth, she can connect to people and give them lots of love and understanding. Something that not everyone can do. But she’s a natural at this because of her efforts, which is more appreciated and loved by others than she realizes.

N: Yes. Was it a hard decision for her to come to Earth or was she really excited about it?

J: Not hard at all, but again, when you are in this realm before you incarnate, you don’t fully know what is there waiting for you. You know, but you don’t know. So, it makes perfect sense for her and for many other beings in the world that they feel that they haven’t chosen it, but they really did. It’s just sometimes a bit harder than they expect it to be and different.

N: Yeah, you can plan all you want, but what actually ends up happening might not be what you expected?

J: Yes, the human experience is very… it can be very mischievous to be honest.

N: Why don’t things always go the way we initially planned before we come to Earth?

J: This is also part of the plan, but the plan that we have goes out and then we need to come up with a different plan even though it’s still the same feeling.

It’s very complicated to understand it from this perspective, but it’s like this difference between having free will and at the same time having a destiny. We all have a destiny, but also we all have free will.

So, when we come here, we just gather in between both of them all the time. So, it feels like no matter what we do, we end up in the same place and at the same time. We end up in the same place by doing different things.

N: I would like to talk about J’s mother and her transition. How can J prepare for her mom’s transition?

J: She knows that death is not the end. She knows that her mother will always be in her heart and in her dreams and that it’s not the end. So, this is not what worries her. What worries her are the emotions, the grief and the sadness… that this is going to overwhelm her because she’s already been experiencing them even though her mom is still here. So, the only thing she can do is to cherish the moments that she has with her mom now, no matter how simple they are, even if it’s being silent. And to know and to remember that death is not the end. That death is not the end.

She will see her mom all the way in her dreams or her visions during her practices and she’ll always be there. So, physically, from a physical point of view, there’s not much to do. There will be an impact, a very heavy one, but she’s protected by her angels, so she will be okay. She has support, she’ll be okay, but she needs to just feel everything that she’s feeling now. So when the moment comes, it’ll be a bit easier.

N: So, she can prepare through feeling it?

J: Yes, because she’s been grieving her mom already for a while, and it’s a process. And she knows she’s in it, but she needs to continue with this process and she needs to continue to release everything.

N: Why did her mom choose to have dementia?

J: She chose to have dementia because she really wasn’t happy with her life. She didn’t do things she loved. She conformed to societal expectations and she didn’t manage fully to really embrace her own spirit and her own destiny. And it got to the point where she decided that it’s no longer acceptable for her to live like that, so she chose to forget and just not be doing it, and she chose not to be so involved like she always was a thousand percent in everything.

That’s why she chose this for herself and for others as a reminder of the fragility of life and how important it is to love others because you never know whether they’ll depart. And how important it is to really live the life that we came here to live. So, we don’t need to forget before our parents depart, hopefully.

N: How can J help her father [through this time]?

J: She’s already doing a great job. She can keep sending him prayers. Yes, she can pray for this… for her father.

N: Yes, prayers are very powerful, aren’t they?

J: Yes, very much. And she knows that she has not really been doing that because she’s been traumatized by the prayers of the Catholic church, so she is having a love/hate relationship with praying.

N: So, this can be a good reminder to her to pray?

J: Yes. And she’ll feel much, much better when she does.

N: Thank you for answering my questions. Can we go ahead and do a body scan for J now? Look through all the areas of the body, and just let us know if there’s anything we need to be concerned about. Take your time and scan from the top of the head to the bottom of the feet, and let us know if there are any problems or if anything is out of balance.

J: She needs to eat better. She’s not eating properly. She needs to eat better because her body is not getting enough nourishment from the food she’s eating. So, she needs to eat better because in the long run, there’s not a problem now, but in the long run, there will be a problem.

N: What would be the best things for her to eat?

J: She eats plant-based. She needs to implement more proteins in her diet. It’s something that she knows, but she’s kind of sweeping it under the carpet. But I’m saying it now. It’s very important to have more proteins in the diet.

N: What’s a good example of a protein that would be really good for her?

J: All sorts of beans. Beans and lentils.

N: Are there any other issues that you’re seeing in the body?

J: No. She should just check her eyes again because her sight is getting worse. It’s her glasses.

N: Why is her eyesight getting worse? What’s causing this?

J: She came [in] with perfect vision already. Everyone in her family is having the same issue. It’s about not being able to see everything clearly.

N: What is she not seeing clearly?

J: Herself! What she truly is. What a beautiful being she is.

N: Is that the same for her other family members – that they’re not seeing themselves clearly?

J: Yes. All of them are connected in this way.

N: Is there anything that she can do to see herself more clearly? To honor what a beautiful being she is?

J: Every time she connects to her heart, she sees what she expects to see. So, every time she can connect to her heart, [through] any practice she chooses that makes her feel connected to her heart, it’s going to make her vision clearer.

N: Now that she understands the reason for her eyesight getting worse, can we give her some healing around her eyes now? (Yes.)

Go ahead and do that and let us know how you’re healing it as you’re healing.

J: Sending light, yellow light, bright light, even darkness behind closed eyes, strengthening the cells, the blood vessels in the eyes.

N: Is J feeling or sensing anything as you heal this? (Yes.)

What is she feeling?

J: She can see a lot of colors.

N: The colors? What will she notice after the session?

J: It might take some time, but she should notice improvements. She should notice that her vision… it’s a bit less blurry. It can take some time, though.

N: So, whenever she notices she’s having trouble with her eyes, does that mean she needs to love herself more? (Yes.)

What are some ways she could show herself that she loves herself?

J: Every time she’s choosing something that she genuinely wants and she knows will support her, she’s loving herself. Every time she’s choosing something that, inside, she knows it’s not good for her and yet she’s doing it, she is not loving herself.

N: That makes sense. Are there any last messages you’d like to share with J before we go?

J: I really hope that she won’t be doubting this experience, that she will truly listen to everything that was said and done today, that it’ll encourage her to continue on her journey. She will know that she can always connect to her Higher Self and that she is doing a great job, and she doesn’t need to be so harsh to herself for just making mistakes and being human. And that she’s very loved. Very much loved.

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